story of my life

Could I have been someone els?
If I took other decisions.
Did I screw up by not listening?
And making the wrong choices.
could my life been better?
If I just did what was told
I know I can't blame myself,
things happen for a reason.
But I feel responsible,
Selfish for not caring.
And when life hits you,
you realize it is to late.
I can honestly say,
that I have had a terrible life.
It made me scared an paranoid.
always terrified of the dark.
Voices in your head
That become louder and louder.
The feeling being watched,
then there is nobody around.
Friends trying to help.
And people declaring you insane.
There you are stuck and lost.
No medication helps you,
and talking does nothing for you.
So you decide to end it.
Life is just not for you.
But then you find love,
and everything seems so clear.
Until it slips away,
death is all around you.
And the darkness returns.
You are loosing your mind again.
And no one is looking after you.
When emotions pile up,
they have to come out.
So you start writing.
And when the words flow.
you feel a little stronger.
So you go out again.
To find love and comfort.
You find a troubled girl.
With a life as bad as yours.
But happy and smiling.
You are confused, how?
Never seen the world,
but so much knowledge.
So you read her your story's.
And you laugh and cry together.
The things that keep you going,
Hope, Faith and Love.