i cant take it

I was doomed from the start in my story for 16 years now. I believed everything you have stated in your journal. My real father neglected me, my family members committed suicide because they couldn't take life, I've been in many near death situations, my house caught on fire, my sister overdosed on pills when she was two, my brother got hit by a car and survived, two of my siblings died before being born, we've been to the ER several times, as well as a mental hospital, talking with CPS, and even court issues. But...
I fought back. I don't your entire story, but I will say the people who got through the most are stronger than the rest, they are wiser as well. Everyone is born for a reason, they were wanted, and there something out there for everyone. The youngest years of your life tend to be the most painful, but giving up when you've already started your life is just asking for a negative future. Even if it seems impossible, if you believe in a more happier future, there is a greater possibility of it happening. Sometimes you can't control the world, but you shouldn't let the bad things take your life and confidence, don't give in. Of course the root of evil spreads over the world, but there are also everyday people who save people worldwide. My adopted father, is one of those people. He saved me. Without him, I'm sure I would have ended myself a long time ago. But you see the simplest and smallest things in life can be your sure hope to keep going. Though my situation hasn't perfected as much as I wish it has, I've been rebelling everything that is trying to take me down. Life is very much like a game, people will push you down to finish first, and get what they want. You can't let them get that far. We all have to fight for what we want in life, otherwise we're just puppets on strings. Don't let anyone write your story, you'll always be able to keep yourself from losing faith. No one can drive you crazy unless you give them the keys. I don't love a person in my family, they have all done me wrong, even if they believe they haven't with all their heart. I used to feel hopeless because my biological father didn't care enough about me to stick with me through my life. He betrayed me and my mother before I was born. But I realized something, a mother, a father, isn't someone that just brings you into the world, it's someone that loves you for who you are and will always be there, do anything to protect you and guide you. From there I stopped feeling so miserable everyday. I realized that nothing that happened in my life wasn't my fault, and it wasn't intended to be that way either. It just happened. But there is a chance, a possibility for anything, that chance gives me faith that one day I will have everything I deserve for the bad days I live through now. I don't regret being born anymore. I don't need anyone to stand by me, though I have a handful of good friends, that's all that matters, because they are close to me. I'm sorry for this time that you are going through, I wish you luck, but life teaches us all to be stronger than the elements that challenge us everyday. If you feel this way, talk to your friend, and honestly, if your ever feeling so terrible you need someone at a moment, you can speak to me or someone online if you don't like talking to people in reality. Many of my friends today are friends because they were suffering in their own lives... And I came to help before it's too late. We're all a family in that way. Our horror stories connect one another, we know how it feels. It will get better, as long as you remain strong