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Simple request.
If you care, read this and tell it..
If you don't, well don't bother to read but tell you don't care. I do wanna know.
I... If I explain it all here, it will be HUGE journal and no-one will have time to read it so I will make a problem list and you can answer or note or ask questions or whatever.... please...
Just... help me.
Before I am totally broken.
Before I die.
I am so afraid of myself..
Ok, here it is.
1. I get these anxiety attacks when I just cry and believe I'll die...
2. At times I feel happy, at times I feel everything is worthless just like now
3. I am obsessed with self-hurt and death
4. I torture myself with horror (movies etc)
5. I have A LOT OF phobias (needles, spiders, whats in darkness, people etc...)
6. I feel I cannot love... Well I CAN love but I feel I am not doing it right and I am afraid of ruining it..
7. My mind changes. All the time.
8. I am unsure about everything..
9. I have this terrible love issue. There are few I will love always, some of them more, some less. Then sometimes I have got these strange times when I just fall in love with someone too easily and quicly after that I get feeling I cannot continue this. Sometimes love fades away, sometimes it stays.
10. I have huge trust issues
11. I used to cheat and I am afraid of doing so again
12. I feel so... lonely. I need someone... to take care of me. It seems no one.. takes care.. of me.
13. I have this feeling no-one really cares
14. I get jealous really easily
15. I am afraid of being myself
16. I think I have several personalities
17. I get angry easily and then I can do ANYTHING... Hit someone, hit myself, leave my beloved, ANYTHING.
18. My heart has been broke so many times I think it's dead now.. I want my heart back..
19. I am so ashamed of the past and all the things I've done and I can't get over it.
20. ... I have been raped.
21. I have been near death several times and it has left it's marks on me...
22. I get bored really easily or then i feel i cant focus on something I'd need to do and then I get bored and it gets me irritated
23. I usually do something really stupid at times when I have huge boredom
24. I sometimes seek attention with purpose but i dont know why.
25. I am not normal male at all
26. I have no strenght to live and do the usual things people do daily.
and million other problems.. Sorry to bother you...
I can go to die.. right?
Yeah, right...
I am fine alone..
I deserve to be alone..
I deserve...
I do...
If you care, read this and tell it..
If you don't, well don't bother to read but tell you don't care. I do wanna know.
I... If I explain it all here, it will be HUGE journal and no-one will have time to read it so I will make a problem list and you can answer or note or ask questions or whatever.... please...
Just... help me.
Before I am totally broken.
Before I die.
I am so afraid of myself..
Ok, here it is.
1. I get these anxiety attacks when I just cry and believe I'll die...
2. At times I feel happy, at times I feel everything is worthless just like now
3. I am obsessed with self-hurt and death
4. I torture myself with horror (movies etc)
5. I have A LOT OF phobias (needles, spiders, whats in darkness, people etc...)
6. I feel I cannot love... Well I CAN love but I feel I am not doing it right and I am afraid of ruining it..
7. My mind changes. All the time.
8. I am unsure about everything..
9. I have this terrible love issue. There are few I will love always, some of them more, some less. Then sometimes I have got these strange times when I just fall in love with someone too easily and quicly after that I get feeling I cannot continue this. Sometimes love fades away, sometimes it stays.
10. I have huge trust issues
11. I used to cheat and I am afraid of doing so again
12. I feel so... lonely. I need someone... to take care of me. It seems no one.. takes care.. of me.
13. I have this feeling no-one really cares
14. I get jealous really easily
15. I am afraid of being myself
16. I think I have several personalities
17. I get angry easily and then I can do ANYTHING... Hit someone, hit myself, leave my beloved, ANYTHING.
18. My heart has been broke so many times I think it's dead now.. I want my heart back..
19. I am so ashamed of the past and all the things I've done and I can't get over it.
20. ... I have been raped.
21. I have been near death several times and it has left it's marks on me...
22. I get bored really easily or then i feel i cant focus on something I'd need to do and then I get bored and it gets me irritated
23. I usually do something really stupid at times when I have huge boredom
24. I sometimes seek attention with purpose but i dont know why.
25. I am not normal male at all
26. I have no strenght to live and do the usual things people do daily.
and million other problems.. Sorry to bother you...
I can go to die.. right?
Yeah, right...
I am fine alone..
I deserve to be alone..
I deserve...
I do...
You got any phobias?
What phobia/s do you have? Why do you have it/them?
(I'm just curious and bored)
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Hi.
In my entire life, I've always been attracted to guys (male).
And in my entire life, people have always told me that they think I am bisexual. I always replied "no", but they told me this so many fucking times that now I'm wondering if I'm really bi.
When I walk and see a cute guy I'm like "Oh, he's so cute!" and yes, if I see a cute girl I think "she's cute" but it ends here. There's no real attraction with girls.
So, I know it's kinda stupid asking something like this but-- HOW do you know if you're bisexual? Is there a way to know?
My friends are driving my nuts with this bisexual's stuff and I'm really confused.
Btw, this is NOT a
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I'm...getting progressively more suicidal and depressed and anxious. I was better for awhile, and then my roommate moved his girlfriend in. She constantly puts me down, hits my cat. Tells me I'm immature and she's significantly more mature than me. (She's five years younger than me, in fact, shes barely 18.) She pushes me to cut, she tells me I'm a bad person. All I ever even try to do in life is make everyone else happy.
I sacrifice plenty for everyone else, and rarely complain except for when someone screws me over. At least not in front of her. I complain to my best friend when he doesn't do the dishes (he's my other roommate, there are fo
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You don't deserve to be alone! Honestly I don't know how to help you with a lot of things on there, but I can name a few:
2) I go through that too....believe me, it's all in your mind. The best you can do is try to tough it out, as bad as that might sound :/
3) Same here. That might not be a bad thing. depending. Do you do it to yourself? (i.e self-harm, suicidal tendencies)
5) Phobias can be overcome. Just facing them once won't help. A good way to do it is exposure now and then, so that you get used to it, if that makes sense.
7) What do you mean by this?
13) If no one cared, no one would be telling you not to give up, as I see plenty of caring people here doing
15) Insecurity issues? That just has to do with accepting you for you. Everyone does it differently.
19) Do you want to note me? I might be able to help depending on what these things were....
21) Suicide attempts, or accidents?
22) Maybe that's another thing to look into? I do that cuz of ADHD
23) Such as?
24) That probably has to do with the 'no one cares' issue again. Again, nothing to be ashamed of depending on how you're going about it
25) How so?
26) Probably depression. Know that feeling
I really, really hope this helped you at least a bit. Feel free to note me and talk to me if you want. I know there are people who care about you, I know it
2) I go through that too....believe me, it's all in your mind. The best you can do is try to tough it out, as bad as that might sound :/
3) Same here. That might not be a bad thing. depending. Do you do it to yourself? (i.e self-harm, suicidal tendencies)
5) Phobias can be overcome. Just facing them once won't help. A good way to do it is exposure now and then, so that you get used to it, if that makes sense.
7) What do you mean by this?
13) If no one cared, no one would be telling you not to give up, as I see plenty of caring people here doing
15) Insecurity issues? That just has to do with accepting you for you. Everyone does it differently.
19) Do you want to note me? I might be able to help depending on what these things were....
21) Suicide attempts, or accidents?
22) Maybe that's another thing to look into? I do that cuz of ADHD
23) Such as?
24) That probably has to do with the 'no one cares' issue again. Again, nothing to be ashamed of depending on how you're going about it
25) How so?
26) Probably depression. Know that feeling
I really, really hope this helped you at least a bit. Feel free to note me and talk to me if you want. I know there are people who care about you, I know it