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Lately I've been a bit busy with school since I just finished up summer classes to graduate. A friend of mine, who has a crush on me, has been wanting to talk to me. But I've been busy and just not feeling up to it for some reason. So I feel kinda bad. They texted my mom about it who just told them I'm still in classes (the semester isn't over, but my classes are) to give me some time. I feel bad about not answering, but I also am just not feeling up to a lot of things lately.
Also, I've been planning on applying to a program to work in Japan. My friend said they'd be willing to come with me. It kind of feels like they don't think I can take care of myself or something. It makes me kind of not want to apply and instead look at moving to London since my friend has said they wouldn't move there. It's a little constricting really. I don't know what to do. I don't want to hurt their feelings or anything, but it's kind of suffocating. Also I get the feeling that since they're a couple years older than me that they feel like they're much smarter than me. And I don't really like that. And I'm not really sure if I'd want to live with them. A couple months ago they came to visit me since I was feeling down and we went to the beach for days. It was still fun and stuff, just I feel like I need a more stimulating person in my life if I were to live with someone, or something like that.
And then there's when my aunt met them. She wanted to because we went on a trip together and they're my friend, also because they have a crush on me (she seems to want to meet the people that have crushes on my for some reason). It's nice that she was accepting and stuff, but it was a little overly accepting. Like she was saying how she'd accept if we wanting to move in together or get married or whatever. For one thing, no. I don't want to be in a relationship with them like that. It's like she just wants me to be in a relationship or something, I guess since I've never had a boyfriend or been on a date or anything. It's just. No. It feels like so much pressure from everywhere.
At least my mom accepts that I'm asexual and am not really into dating. I'm not against it, but I have other stuff to do. It's just so much.
Also, I've been planning on applying to a program to work in Japan. My friend said they'd be willing to come with me. It kind of feels like they don't think I can take care of myself or something. It makes me kind of not want to apply and instead look at moving to London since my friend has said they wouldn't move there. It's a little constricting really. I don't know what to do. I don't want to hurt their feelings or anything, but it's kind of suffocating. Also I get the feeling that since they're a couple years older than me that they feel like they're much smarter than me. And I don't really like that. And I'm not really sure if I'd want to live with them. A couple months ago they came to visit me since I was feeling down and we went to the beach for days. It was still fun and stuff, just I feel like I need a more stimulating person in my life if I were to live with someone, or something like that.
And then there's when my aunt met them. She wanted to because we went on a trip together and they're my friend, also because they have a crush on me (she seems to want to meet the people that have crushes on my for some reason). It's nice that she was accepting and stuff, but it was a little overly accepting. Like she was saying how she'd accept if we wanting to move in together or get married or whatever. For one thing, no. I don't want to be in a relationship with them like that. It's like she just wants me to be in a relationship or something, I guess since I've never had a boyfriend or been on a date or anything. It's just. No. It feels like so much pressure from everywhere.
At least my mom accepts that I'm asexual and am not really into dating. I'm not against it, but I have other stuff to do. It's just so much.
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Need advice about bisexuality
Hi.
In my entire life, I've always been attracted to guys (male).
And in my entire life, people have always told me that they think I am bisexual. I always replied "no", but they told me this so many fucking times that now I'm wondering if I'm really bi.
When I walk and see a cute guy I'm like "Oh, he's so cute!" and yes, if I see a cute girl I think "she's cute" but it ends here. There's no real attraction with girls.
So, I know it's kinda stupid asking something like this but-- HOW do you know if you're bisexual? Is there a way to know?
My friends are driving my nuts with this bisexual's stuff and I'm really confused.
Btw, this is NOT a
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I'm...getting progressively more suicidal and depressed and anxious. I was better for awhile, and then my roommate moved his girlfriend in. She constantly puts me down, hits my cat. Tells me I'm immature and she's significantly more mature than me. (She's five years younger than me, in fact, shes barely 18.) She pushes me to cut, she tells me I'm a bad person. All I ever even try to do in life is make everyone else happy.
I sacrifice plenty for everyone else, and rarely complain except for when someone screws me over. At least not in front of her. I complain to my best friend when he doesn't do the dishes (he's my other roommate, there are fo
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Tell this person to back the heck off and stay away from your family. If they want to to talk to you, they should talk to you directly. This is the sign of a stalker or a control freak. No, they should not go with you abroad because it will make matters worse. If they truly cared about you, they would value you as a person and not as a damsel in distress or as an inferior. They would respect you as an equal. Tell your aunt you don't need her approval. Geeze. Being an aunt myself, I let my niece make her own decisions. This person sounds like he is trying to get into your family's good graces so you can't talk bad about them and that happens! Don't let it happen!