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Sorry it's so long, but I had to put it out there.
Everyone thinks that I cut myself for attention. Well, news flash: I don't. Do you really want to know why? I cut myself because I need a release from all of the pain that has been building up inside for 16 years. I don't know why, but I feel like I can't talk to anyone- not my mom, not my step-dad, not my councelor, not you. I lie to everyone about the simplist of things because I'm afraid of showing the real me. I've got this mask on, and all I am is an actress. I feel like I need to be perfect all of the time, and when I'm not I failed. And when my mom and step-dad scream at me and tell me things, I have no one to talk to about my emotions. I've been taught that crying is a sign of weakness, and I've been raised not to be weak. I can't cry, so I cut. I cut because the mental pain is gone when I do it, maybe only for a few seconds, but those few seconds are amazing. And yes.. it IS an addiction. Once you start, you probably won't stop.
Okay.. I suppose I'll be done now. It just really pisses me off when people say that we cut for attention. No. Get it right.
Everyone thinks that I cut myself for attention. Well, news flash: I don't. Do you really want to know why? I cut myself because I need a release from all of the pain that has been building up inside for 16 years. I don't know why, but I feel like I can't talk to anyone- not my mom, not my step-dad, not my councelor, not you. I lie to everyone about the simplist of things because I'm afraid of showing the real me. I've got this mask on, and all I am is an actress. I feel like I need to be perfect all of the time, and when I'm not I failed. And when my mom and step-dad scream at me and tell me things, I have no one to talk to about my emotions. I've been taught that crying is a sign of weakness, and I've been raised not to be weak. I can't cry, so I cut. I cut because the mental pain is gone when I do it, maybe only for a few seconds, but those few seconds are amazing. And yes.. it IS an addiction. Once you start, you probably won't stop.
Okay.. I suppose I'll be done now. It just really pisses me off when people say that we cut for attention. No. Get it right.
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Need advice about bisexuality
Hi.
In my entire life, I've always been attracted to guys (male).
And in my entire life, people have always told me that they think I am bisexual. I always replied "no", but they told me this so many fucking times that now I'm wondering if I'm really bi.
When I walk and see a cute guy I'm like "Oh, he's so cute!" and yes, if I see a cute girl I think "she's cute" but it ends here. There's no real attraction with girls.
So, I know it's kinda stupid asking something like this but-- HOW do you know if you're bisexual? Is there a way to know?
My friends are driving my nuts with this bisexual's stuff and I'm really confused.
Btw, this is NOT a
I guess I need help
I'm...getting progressively more suicidal and depressed and anxious. I was better for awhile, and then my roommate moved his girlfriend in. She constantly puts me down, hits my cat. Tells me I'm immature and she's significantly more mature than me. (She's five years younger than me, in fact, shes barely 18.) She pushes me to cut, she tells me I'm a bad person. All I ever even try to do in life is make everyone else happy.
I sacrifice plenty for everyone else, and rarely complain except for when someone screws me over. At least not in front of her. I complain to my best friend when he doesn't do the dishes (he's my other roommate, there are fo
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There are others ways to vent that pain without hurting yourself. Talking is such a release, if you can work up to it. I wish you all the best.