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I don't have any friends, only thing I have is depression and lately sth like anhedonia.
Depression from so many years, and no friend for many years too.
People from my school think that I'm happy because I'm smiling and sometimes telling jokes.
But just not true. When I'm with people I act like I'm happy but I really feel like I'm crying. At home I'm crying one, two or three times per day. Also I feel physical pain, because I have many disorders.
I'm alone but I always was. People always talking about their friends, childhood. I don't want to tell them that I was bullied for ten years. I'm very shy person. People says that I look like satanist ( I like heavy metal and they know about it). I'm Christian, but I don't feel God's love but I don't wanna laught at Him like my potential friends ( who are pagans do). (I was bullied for being Christian too, by my clasmates who was Christian too).
The main thing: I feel so confused because I don't have friends but I also feel so ashamed to tell people that I don't have anyone, that I'm all alone. I think they will laught at me and I know that can destroy me completly.
Depression from so many years, and no friend for many years too.
People from my school think that I'm happy because I'm smiling and sometimes telling jokes.
But just not true. When I'm with people I act like I'm happy but I really feel like I'm crying. At home I'm crying one, two or three times per day. Also I feel physical pain, because I have many disorders.
I'm alone but I always was. People always talking about their friends, childhood. I don't want to tell them that I was bullied for ten years. I'm very shy person. People says that I look like satanist ( I like heavy metal and they know about it). I'm Christian, but I don't feel God's love but I don't wanna laught at Him like my potential friends ( who are pagans do). (I was bullied for being Christian too, by my clasmates who was Christian too).
The main thing: I feel so confused because I don't have friends but I also feel so ashamed to tell people that I don't have anyone, that I'm all alone. I think they will laught at me and I know that can destroy me completly.
You got any phobias?
What phobia/s do you have? Why do you have it/them?
(I'm just curious and bored)
Need advice about bisexuality
Hi.
In my entire life, I've always been attracted to guys (male).
And in my entire life, people have always told me that they think I am bisexual. I always replied "no", but they told me this so many fucking times that now I'm wondering if I'm really bi.
When I walk and see a cute guy I'm like "Oh, he's so cute!" and yes, if I see a cute girl I think "she's cute" but it ends here. There's no real attraction with girls.
So, I know it's kinda stupid asking something like this but-- HOW do you know if you're bisexual? Is there a way to know?
My friends are driving my nuts with this bisexual's stuff and I'm really confused.
Btw, this is NOT a
I guess I need help
I'm...getting progressively more suicidal and depressed and anxious. I was better for awhile, and then my roommate moved his girlfriend in. She constantly puts me down, hits my cat. Tells me I'm immature and she's significantly more mature than me. (She's five years younger than me, in fact, shes barely 18.) She pushes me to cut, she tells me I'm a bad person. All I ever even try to do in life is make everyone else happy.
I sacrifice plenty for everyone else, and rarely complain except for when someone screws me over. At least not in front of her. I complain to my best friend when he doesn't do the dishes (he's my other roommate, there are fo
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