A couple of months back, I recently had found out I was in love. How I found out, is a bit..I guess you could say strange. I'm not one to really have someone disarm me so. I never experienced so much with someone before. Friends have with me, but, this feels really different, extremely different. It really is incredible. The strange thing is, when I started to finally realize my feelings..I was alone in the house, I was kinda sorting them out by myself, I..I actually cried..not wept or anything. Nothing like that.
But, I kinda went wide eyed and felt tears stream down my face..I touched my cheek and I stared for a little while, heh..and you know the first thing I said was, "Oh no...." I was scared..but...something felt so incredibly wonderful. The sad part is, this guy I am in love with is far away from me, and he does not know my feelings for him at all. I started to create a comic to give to him, to show him how I feel.
What is hurting me the most, is the yearning feeling for this guy. I love this feeling for him, don't get me wrong, it's just how much I want to tell him in person. It's quite the ripping feeling inside, how can something feel so good and yet so heart wrenching at the same time?. It's a rhetorical question, but anyone is free to make an opinion regardless. It hurts, but at the same time, I love it. He makes me extremely happy, and I've pushed so hard and tried so much because of him. And, it's also strange because, unlike with other guys I have talked too, he's the only one I felt this for.
I'm hoping this yearning feeling will cease once I express my feelings out there. I am well aware of what COULD happen, I just can't hold these feelings in anymore, you know?.
Hopefully someone out there knows.